RapeR. A. P. ERapeBy a guy in a blue capeIt was in a hotel after a danceThis was my last chanceI was walking down the hallIn the middle of fallA guy behind a door as calling my nameAnd shut the door when I cameMy hand was on the wall searching for a light switchI all of a sudden started to itchHE pushed me to the floorI couldn't take it anymoreI started to scream and cryIt seemed like hours went byI kicked and I hitI even bitHE went inside mepressing against my kneeFinally he let me goAfter I said a million no'sRapeR. A. P. E.
DeathDeath creeps on you like a shadow in a pitch black room. So never be alone.When you are all alone make sure you have a phone because a man may kill you and you would've knownWhen the days go by you will lie and tell your parents you've never met that guyHe killed your sister and gave you a blister so don't be afraid to cryWhen you brother runs away just let him get away so he doesn't have to live this wayThe man threatend you and tried to grab you but you ran just in timeYou may be fine but with the man out in the world no one will ever shineWhen the bad guys come out to play, run away
ForgivenGod? Suicide? A non-exisiting bliss?Can one band help with all this?When thoughts take over your mindThoughts that are not kindWill you take out the knifeAnd end your lifeCause the thoughts of Satan will not ceaseThey will never decreaseWill you break down and cryAnd just wish you would dieCause you'd think no one would careAnd that life is just not fairWould you lay on the floorWhen you can't take it anymoreOr would you try something newDo what I doListen to a good bandOne that'll give you a handOne that'll touch your heartAnd tell you what you're thinking isn't smartOne that'll bring you closer to GodAnd when they ask you if you believe you can only nodBecause you know you want to give everything to your Holy DadAnd you no longer want to be madSo you get down and prayThat God will forgive you todayAnd you leave your old ways behindSuicide does not even exist in your mindAnd you look toward the heaven wayAnd shout out, "Lord I have become closer to you tod
Ignored.As I lie on the floorYou look at my wristsThe jagged red lines go on foreverYou look in my pastAnd all you see are liesLies that never endLies that shed tearsAnd tearsTears that poured the pain outBut then the tears stoppedAnd the pain was uncontrollableI tried to deal with the painI really tried hardBut I didnt tryHard enoughThats why you stand before my lifeless bodySpread out on the floorIn a puddleOf red liquidComing from my headWhere a bullet went throughAnd left a holeThe gun lay beside meMy fingers still wound around itJust yesterdayI asked you to help meYou said you were too busyI told youI was hurtingYou said to getOVER ITI told youI WANTEDTo dieAnd youLaughedYou dontWant to dieYou just wantATTENTIONYeah I didWant attentionButYou try beingIGNOREDFromEVERYONE
Destroyed keyIf love is realWhy don't I feelLike himHerTheyWill I somedayWill I cry over somebodyWith somebodyAll throughout the nightWill I be held tightWill I ever be kissedOr even missedBy sombodyAnybodyWill someone ever love me like this?Not will but whyWhy do I want to be lovedIn the endMy heart will beRipped in halfTorn ApartStomped onAnd burnedWhy do I want to go throughSo much painJust to have the loveDrainIntoNothingnessEmptying myJoyful BlissLocking my heartDestroying the keyNo one will ever loveMe
Guardian Angel Chapter 1My mom always told me never to talk to people I didnt know online. Mother always knows best; so why didnt I listen? Was it because I felt I needed somebody else in my life and I couldnt find them in the real world? Was it because I felt so poorly about my outer self that I thought the only way people would listen is if they didnt know what I looked like? Or was it because I was a total outcast at school and everybody hated me so I wanted to find somebody who finally didnt? And why didnt I just stop after my mother found out what I was doing? Was it because I like to disobey my mother? Was it because I like to make her worry? Or was it because I found somebody online that I truly thought I was in love with? These were all the questions my therapist told me to ask myself. I knew the answers to all of these questions, but Im not going to t
Hear the PainTrying not to breathStaying as still as you canYou lay thereUpon your bedHoping your parents won't noticeIt's dark and lateAnd they came to check on youYour muscles tighten as you try so hard not to make a soundThey smileThinking your asleepA small whimper escapes from your lipsDid your parents hear?NoThe whimper was only faintLost somewhere between you and where your parents standThey leave the room closing the door behind themYou weep long sobs of sorrowWishing they could hear the pain